Winter of anxiety

Today was a really good lunch in the restaurant. The place was full and it felt like a real restaurant. That's a big issue for me, feeling like a real place. But it's February 21st. These kinds of days are few and far between. That's going on 4 months of mostly feeling inadequate and anxious. And it's because of the weather (at least I hope that's the problem). There are other reasons, of course, no one eats out the day before Thanksgiving, no one eats out on a voting day, but really, no one eats out when the weather is bad or there is the hint of snow. And there have been a lot more than hints of snow this winter. The snow has been more along the lines of getting smacked in the face with the back of a shovel in your face than a hint. My balcony one morning. One of many mornings with new snow.